#LifeofPain #PainLife #ConfessionsOfPain #moderator_en @moderator_en #Pickoftheweek #WreckingCrewRevoloution 🛠 #RapFameBest This one means alot guys... like I said in the beginning I've had this one in me for soooo long. I really appreciate all ears and HONEST feedback yaw. Means more than you know!!! #KeepitMusic people 👍💯✌ Much love and Thanks. (you know I've had this one in me .) ( deep down) (for so long) looking back on my experience as a child. no matter how hard it was. I still gotta smile. my family definitely tried to do the things they should. a stubborn boy like me. id say they did the best they could. coming up as a teen I was a troubled son. until this day give thanks and grace. forgive the things I done. I lost a whole lot of battles. then again some I won. the way we grew up . you aint got a choice. its fight or run. by the time I was 13 it was all but done. my parents went and decided divorce is what they want. my daddy lost it. started gambling gave his life to drugs. my grandparents filled the void. taught us respect and love. my momma always worked hard. and gave us plenty hugs. until she fell down her own hole. that the devil dug. and after that she lost her husband to murderous thugs. abused as a kid . my whole family came out the mud. but we try that's no lie and who am I to be the one to judge. leave that for father above. shouts to my cousin in prison. I know dem bars suck. because you fucked up. when you was hard up . went forgot about all the family that was first wit you back from the start up. that's hard stuff. pawpaw fights for his life with this virus. can't be silent weighing on my heart tough. through Gods love. you gone beat that In the lords name. I repeat that and I pray alot that you believe that and receive that gotta speak facts. I remember when I thought things wont ever change time flies , and soon you find they'll never be the same. spinning out of control and somehow I'm to blame. Been in a fight for my soul. I've lived a life of pain. sitting here thinking about my dreams and goals. while they don't seem so bold. why can't I achieve. I'm grown. I tend to believe what I'm shown. lord help me see the unknown. heal my relationships I pray that I can redeem of my soul. and I wanna make the most of everything and person around me embracing this life to the fullest with all love abounding! can't wait to get forgiveness cuz Yeshua payed the bounty. I'm resting in your goodness and mercy essence surround me. no matter what you did. man its about what you do. as long as your intentions are pure. and filled with the truth. yes they killing our kids. mental prescriptions at school. when they know that they don't need it. know that shit aint no cool. treat us like we fools. tell us to stay at home. I'm way gone . my sons gone grow up knowing what to do everytime they play this song awake the game. aint afraid of shame. this life of pain. aint something I choose. I may not be where I wanna be. but I'm a long way from where I used to. watch me grow. stop the clock before it hits zero. a little more time. to let my family know. my appreciation and what I've been shown. hope im not wrong with the seeds I've sewn. get shot down in the breeze I've flown. can't stop now. enemies are close. gone be the best me . til I rest below.