when I first saw her i was in, aww, you feel me early week day morning, mix that with a portion of that what i ,saw, than that damn hot not mine feeling, woulda been lucky if I ever get a ,thought, from her, than, by my own dilema, probably not to my surprised fault, like I never seen, well had a chance to know someone so beautiful, but i kept it on the low, i mean like clearly what chance, a rapper got, with this hit song anyway, not lots just getting with, her, in my head, I could tell it, she was way too nice, so tell her no way, i didnt understand that i missed that chance, every day since, i aint been right, cause I know im in love, and than that knowing how would might, lets just say be, the difference in between be a big huge leap, and all i wants hugs, on the scale seems so unfair, did i mention shhhhhh nahhh yeaaa, they say you give and youll get, you only get what your given, i been missin shows cause of theory them lessons I missed damn, so hows how I wonder round limitless yall like a yoyo spinning out control im the string inbetween here and there some kinda star sign i must a guessed missed cooked smoked than lost pouring out the hood, some where, steady tryna pray tho looks. happy and me being it two different things can i explain it all, see im a hopless drug addict to start with i dont love myself, not like i should, because theres nothing left, and yea lil things seems big like a month ago, where i could of had it all, and thats like a big moment thats gone, it seems, how am i supposed to find happiness when im right here and my dogs dead and gone, plus im over trying to show some one i havnt got alot and that im worth a fair bit, been chat with probly fifty thousand somthing girls on the net, but i still havnt met, anyone unless that persons jess,like seems so unfair my married psycholigist from years ago, that I cant get damn that one i havnt seen told or showed emotions towards, cause i dont wanna seem stupid or maybe cause i hate the word no, vicious cycle dont get out allot, high standards, the other week I shared the bed with some friend who needs enemys bitch,