Trying to set my mind positive about this life, But why the fuck I need to struggle just to survive. So tired of feeling worthless and depressed, sometimes I feel like I’d be better off dead. Choosing alcohol and drugs just to cope, If I don’t I’m sober and don’t do shit but cry and mope. Feeling worthless and a burden  everywhere I go, I fucking swear I never felt this sad and low. Lately I be Overthinking all the time, wishing there was a way for me to just unwind. Tried to be positive and do No wrong, but i keep getting knocked down no wonder my faith is gone. I can’t believe I let my life get this way, stressing even with substances I still feel pain. Mentally unstable and going insane I hate this chemical imbalance in my brain. I straight up given up on myself, fucking can’t believe I made my life hell. Wanna just call it quits already since lately I see fucked up situations nothing but comedy. Can’t trust anyone due to all the times Ive been fucked over Got treated like a dog it’s like “come here rover”. I notice I do a lot of contemplating Then get frustrated by over analyzing. Some days I wake up just wanting to pull this trigger Aim it at my temple, haha aint that a pretty picture. So many mistakes I’ve made im disgusted with myself. Have anxiety constantly and it’s bad for my healthLost everything helping others before myself But where are they when I’m in need of help. I swear life has me thinking it’s a fucking joke I’ve had enough of my self loathing sulks. I’m feeling myself turning psychotic Haha I guess you can say I’m neurotic. My anger is like a loaded gun Piss me off and I’ll have some fun.  I’m blunt so I’ll tell you how shit is And if you get offended just know this. I don’t care for any drama And fuck me over I’ll be your karma. These days I try and keep it real And most don’t so it’s hard to deal. I’m about to paralyze my feelings Fuck it , I just gotta learn to care about me. So stressed with life, I’m about to explode The new me finally says bye to the old. I don’t like snitches or fake ass friends Stab my back, don’t expect to make Amends. My chemical imbalance makes it hard to function Shit It is what it is end of discussion