so just another day another death ..this ones hurts the most... got feeling like no heart is left in my chest ...try to stopp crying ...and take a breath.. com my nerves hit the ses.. my family makes me remeber that im blessed ...so why can't I stop pointing this nine in my head ...my brain's hungry for led ... please xxcan i be the next dead.. i love u nephew but u want wwwxxwwxsxweswww took yourself out way too young ...acting dumb... tomorrow we could all been chilling making tja pain num .... maybie I should try it too ...it looks fun... but if I kill myself.. I'm going to head first jump in the deepiest part of the sun ...but my kids keep me grounded for now ...but if i ever lose sight kopow devil got me now...my first son i miss my toe headed jerk ...when u left dad went basurk ..out all night putting in work trying to mask the hurt ..papa has em now.. my glue wish i could have just ten min to talk to u... but its ok ill see u in a dream or two... coo ps i miss u love u dad gone too soon... but they say the good die young... that explains why im here out still getting spun.. looking like a deer in headlights having fun ...most of my fam got me shun... no nothing about me except i dmoke cigs and one time tried to sell gama sum drugs so let sinless cast the first stone oh u cant well turn ur ass around anf head home ..give a dog a bone ...nigga im stoned ..feeling all alone ..demons on fire like they in the zone... im remember being afraid to eat.. when i was nine ...not any food for a year ... but dont worry im fine... psychologist try to find the root but got nothing and gave me the boot but at probation school teacher ...got me thinking ...im sinking.. asked her what do.. she said nothing just be you ...and understand this is all in your head now.. time to tell drop dead fred i dont need u anymore time to put u too beb mom took pills to get away depression becoming to much her mom did it too at the broken bridge two days no one new two kids found her ditching school i wish i could of met u oh tell unckle i say hi to mom says I'm built like you unckle james heard you had to kill a little kid in vietnam to save your Brothers but came home put a gun to his face and went out like his mother