looking at the stars tonight is it really what it says did not really go in Chase everything and then I lost all my dreams I feel like I can never reach him ever again girl yeah I'm stargazing and I am looking at the stars every time that I see him I think of you that one time when we was in that rehab and I'm going to keep my your name between me and you I ain't going to ruin anything that you got going on in your life my boo you don't even know what you did to me you put the spark inside of me you showed me that that could be with someone else and not could be happy do you remember that last phone call when I called her I said I don't really even want to talk to you when I finally hung up on her do you even know what that meant to me girl that was like closing off the chapter in the book that I don't never really want to go back to work open them girl you gave me this new kind of Hope like I could go one and I could do it on my own without that girl so yeah you reminded me all that s*** how you used to knock me down off my pedestal just to look like this to make yourself look a little better now look at me I feel like I can never get any better I feel like maybe I should write you again and I even zgave that girl your name the right a couple times and maybe she could be some kind of guidance in your life because one thing that she's doing then she's doing right she did change her life so the only way that I could help you outi hope. you got your little girl I feel like if I was to see you again you would light up my whole world again damn you realize what i went through every time waiting on that call from you you didn't know I was really twagged out in the dome and I felt like s*** cuz you wouldn't there didn't help and I'm sitting here trying to f****** hide it damn girl I can't believe you went and got all that trouble laughing that news article and I was like what the f*** bro damn I really hope it ain't true I really hope you got the good lawyer and beat that s*** too cuz I never got another letter back from you I just know did that went and I wrote you once dude I didn't really put in no welfare that didn't really do my part but that felt like you had a man all along from the start girl it's okay I told you from the beginning I I don't think that you knew that people thought it was would just be your homeboy don't you feel it don't you see it don't you see what you did to me you lit a fire inside of me you show me that didn't need anybody I could go out and get it on my own and I'm good actually be somebody who deserves a throne maybe I could really go and get it you the one that made me real I was talented I didn't even know I could draw until you told me that I could like what then I realized it all it took one pretty girl with a smile get involved damn girl I hope you doing all right I hope you're not inside the limelight I hope you're praying that Jesus hope you get in your life right I'm sending enough for both of us right now you go and get your baby girl back in your life now hope you do one right cuz little girl I feel like maybe you was playing me maybe you had a bigger plan but then the end you see everything you did was a spark inside of me you let that mother f***** in you let me see but never since that one time one time I feel like ever since that week #bigbrothercontest