living in a cell.. dont know what to do. this my living hell or a calling too. god please forgive me you know i love you idk what to do... idk what to do.. sit and stare at a wall. everything seems to turn to a blur... feeling like a damn fool. am i ready for this fall?. idk what to do.... idk what to do.. lord idk what to do... she used me like a tool. made me feel like a fool. how can she be so cruel. gave her 4 years of my life. how did i not have a clue.. thought she was going to be my wife.. idk what to do.. idk what to do.. lord please help me.. idk what to do. felt like she stabbed me with a knife. lord please help me idk what to do... i think ill ruin this verse.. maybe lay in a hearse. idk what to do. the pain i felt caused the tears to drop like rain.. the pain... the rain... idk what to do.. lord please help me. please help me. idk what to do. she used me like a tool. made me feel like a fool.. shit wasnt even cool.. did i ever fold on you? the nights i layed there seemed to get cold. idk what to do. my real eyes finally realized your real lies. everything all seemed too be a lie.. just leave my life.. i cannot come to deny. everything in my mind doesnt sound right.. idk what to do.. lord please help me... idk what to do.. these tears drooping like rain. pain causing my love to drain. idk what to do.