This rut I’m in

I been looking for a way to get myself out this rut I’m in But when one good things happens then two bad things happen again Can I move on and get right, can I just have one good damn night Can I get some help and move from the darkness back up into the light Ain’t nothing goin my way, chug Bombay to hide my sorrow away, I had love but I gave all away, look at my phone no one to call today, people ask why I threw it all away. Cuz she my all and threw it all away I’m depressed now, I don’t want to even talk, I’m all alone and it’s all my fault Ain’t gonna lie shit sucks, but when I had you you was giving no fucks Eyes turned cold, I can tell you switched up It numbs the sadness when I’m drunk as fuck So every night I’m getting drunk as fuck I can’t keep a girl that’s just my luck Broke as fuck, don’t have 100 bucks Thinking about it like damn this sucks Fuck I been looking for a way to get myself out this rut I’m in But when one good things happens then two bad things happen again Can I move on and get right, can I just have one good damn night Can I get some help and move from the darkness back up into the light