Yeah I had a blessing and it was my grandma She died and I lost it all She had cancer yea she fought Walking down the stairs I watched her fall In her heart love and peace is all I saw I watched her close her eyes take a breath for the last time yeah I watched my granny die Well at least she a angel now Yeah she can fly I grew up all these years later And it still messed with me mentally Some times I thought I wasn't meant to be Kill me god I would beg I would plead in my prayers I would say please My granny was the only one I need She the only one who understand me Yeah anxiety and depression I had it all People though I was mentally ill But nobody around me know the pain I feel Went up in stores had to steel ain't had no money but had to do it just to live Yeah the pain tore the heart right out my ribs It was no one there to show me love and affection But no one ever seen it from my perception But I guess this is how I gotta learn my lesson Anxiety had me to I felt like a fool No body to turn to Yeah my grandma that was my glue No body understand what I been through if they could just review But now I'm stronger than bamboo but I'm still struggling Yeah my life is really puzzling That pain deep down it's bubbling I guess I was born to be different I guess you can call me the ugly duckling But imma make it through Then people going to notice me when I glow up Yeah imma blow up yea yea yea