another lonely night just thinkin bout my life and where its goin i just got home from work andit feels like im all alone just wishing you were here and remembering and reminiscing all the past memories and stories that i tell of our short time lived together as the tears swell with in my heart and soul always aching i cant go on thinking about you without seeing you much longer i hope and pray that in your heart you have grown bigger even stronger than the man that ive become here with out ya it seems to me that i become further and further away then the day i began to go astray strayin away from my heart and soul oh the games that she played oh how she became so foul and cruel yet she played them well and the tears swell but they never really fall im much to use to feeling this way how the pain and anguish and the hurt that i feel inside yet i deal with it every day and night even when your older youll always be my lil soldier the questions will come where i was what i was doing and wether or not i ever thought about ya or if i even truly cared the same questions which constantly haunt me yet if i had it my way i would be with you everyday oh the things we could be doin laughin and playing pushing you on a swing doing all the things that i miss and even all the things that ive missed yet im only 2 streets away to answer your questions im rite here thinking about you just like everyday im so close to ya yet so far away and just like every night i drove by your house which ya lay your precious head hoping to catch just a glimpse of ya even a smile which could take me another 1000 miles leaving me with a smile laying in this bed oh the tears ive shed which have led me hear liveing out my every fear and wishing you were hear the paths that ive taken have been way too long and hard and even when i stumble i couldnt never forget you baby boy i love you and think of you everyday and how or when im ever going to see you again until then son i wait and pray knowing its in gods hands and i know and believe everything gonna be ok until then keep your head up lil soldier and always remember i want you to know i love you and that i miss you more and more as the time comes and passes again all i can do is pray that god be with you knowing that i cant baby boy i Iove you ill never forget you and always remember im thinking of you and miss you but most of all my lil soldier YOUR DADDY WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU l