@jasonburnett Ive been staring at a notepad and a pen wishing these lyrics would write themselves to this dog darn beat. im re-living a nightmare like its a movie that someone put on repeat how was I so in love with you for so long to have you just toss me out on the street like a beer can cause your beer was all gone i still hear the thoughts in my head talking to me while im laying bed all alone and i have no one here to save me from this bad dream all i can do is just yell and scream but there isnt anyone here listening i know you like the red skittles and maybe even the ones colored yellow but how many times are you gonna have to taste that rainbow? Im starting to wonder if you're trying to come out of the closet and too afraid to admit it. i mean whats the matter with the door? why cant you tell me the truth? are you just 2 damn foolish? i would like to believe that you loved me just as much as i loved you but you left memories stained on my mind thats making me think it was all a lie. my heart was ripped out of my chest and the shattered pieces were steadily tearing up my skin on the way out as if the first cut wasn't the deepest. how is it possible that you even loved me when you put your hands around my neck and applied pressure until i slept. and then ran away as if you were leaving me there for dead. lil boys come and they go and I'll give you credit for one thing though you taught me how to defend myself and stand up to you bro. i honestly thought we had something special and we were twin flames but i guess you saw something that just wasn't the same. i am a woman with her own mind and values and didnt deserve the shit you put me through why was I disrespected after all the things i did for you? you know the things like running that business you always be dreaming about again and shit. dont sit there and deny it bitch. tell the side of the story where i was good to you and everyone else too please dont lie. oh and listen to this im saying dont think im over here crying and wishing you were here because Im not. i finally came to realize you aint worth even one tear. i will rise up from this heartache of which you created and i will be the one coming out on top but not on top of you. Im sick of that ride and im glad it finally stopped. Im getting mine and always will. and when i get my babies back I'll send you the bill.