Getting so high till it made me sick, pictures in my head, of people dead, Lord save me quick, before I go out and do some crazy shit, see all my life i been an outcast, with my head in a daze, in a maze, like a mouse trap, thrown to the world like a piece of trash, plotting skeems, by any means, to get me some cash, run in his house, put a gun in his mouth, and take his stash, now living this way, how long will it last, before I rot in a cell, or end up in a body bag, and I can see it in her eyes, that it makes my momma sad, Its time to make a change, with a new game plan, and prove that, I'm a changed man, I got kids to provide for, I'll kill and die for, I want more, but I'm stuck behind a lock door, and they won't let me out, I feel a black cloud, is over my head, and a thousand pounds, strapped to my chest, holding me down, I used to walk with pride, now I walk with my head down, talking to myself, asking for help, but no one's there, and no one cares, death seems the only way out, the devil's lurking trying to take my soul, I look to the sky and shout, what's this life all about, and fuck those whoever doubt, cuz I'm a make it out, and when I do, I'll remember those that did me dirty, and left me hurting, feeling deserted, lost and alone, and worthless, acted like there perfect, but the lord said, not one soul is, no not one person, feeling hopeless, but still on hope I'm holdin, the pain cuts deep like a surgeon, these thoughts running through my mind, trying to figure out why am I hear and what is my purpose, shedding tears, cuz I know I don't deserve this, and sometimes, life, can cut like a knife, and burn deep inside, like a furnace, lord forgive me for my sins, I blame the world I'm living in, but I'm still learning, if I can have one wish, then I wish to be able to take care of my family, my girl and kids,