at first I'd call it admiration slightly beyond fascination europhic inebriation we soared with no expectation consumed in passion with no destination love with deadly attraction like a worn tattered spade I was thrown away I remember us promising to stay knowing it would all go away closed eyes i trusted you were mine so hard to find I trusted only to get left behind I was thrown away misled and blind how do you call this love abandoned and out of line she deserted and discarded today it hurts but I'll take this in stride and say these memories sway selfish lies for some kind of gain cruel selfadmonishing abuser of heart and brain you are now but a grain within my existence vast your lying tounge yourself stopped fast you are the promise of pain and grief it sucks to be thrown away