I can't find my future as my life fades away Every day is torture and I'm living in pain  I wanna be sober, but what will it take The drugs will take over I'm going insane Love is not forever man this world is too cold  My medals made of silver, All what glitters ain't gold  I'm sorry momma for this life that I chose  It is what it is, and that's how life goes I cant escape the feeling that life talks to death  I cant help but feeling that it's all for the best  I can't help myself but live so close to the edge  I cant help but wonder should I give up yet If life be a test I just know I'm gon fail  I wont see the gates of heaven fuck it oh well I'm all alone with my thoughts to myself  I just want closure instead I pop pills I dont understand why I feel this way  I was always told that you cant compare pain I smoke mary to deal with my Janes  I try and mask the pain everyday  Demons tend to stay And here i thought my soul was safe  Turns out these drugs were laced  Ain't no one here to save the day  Where the fuck is shane  Locked up inside a cage  I wanna let out my rage  Let out all my hate  I think that it's to late  Only got my self to blame  I think I need to change my ways  Or six feet what I'm bound to taste  A life that I cannot escape Hell bound in a demons maze  My  shoulder suffers from the weight  Ghosts dancing around my brain  Memories diving me insane  I can't find my future as my life fades away Every day is torture and I'm living in pain  I wanna be sober, but what will it take The drugs will take over I'm going insane Love is not forever man this world is too cold  My medals made of silver, All what glitters ain't gold  I'm sorry momma for this life that I chose  It is what it is, and that's how life goes