depression and emotional failures, if I weren't so arrogant I wouldn't pay the price for wanting to be that I am not, the false sense of ego power stole my love, the fame of power the fucking drugs made my head the addictions of youth drugs the whole shit reversed and now it turned and I don’t seem to know how to fix it, good deep down I know, and regret healing and not hurting anyone else, you and I are all one, I’ve always been lonely, without victimizing without minimizing, be happy with love I don't want to kill myself anymore, the suffering is constant but only now do I see the light at the end of the tunnel and you know I did what I could now it's in the hands of the bigger dad, if you want my forgiveness be forgiven if you want my respect to be respected if you want my love to be loved, those i've done wrong i ask god that i be forgiven and the tram goes on and on and hope to improve for who knows one day to love you again by-product of the structure me and you fucking pandemic , I stopped all that the map start over and join the greater good in morals I love you