*it's just a voice in the back of my HEAD* saying "You would be better off DEAD" "Grab the pistol, release the LEAD" "The pain is over if you just do what I SAID" It's just a voice in the back of my saying "You would be better off DEAD" "Grab the pistol, release the LEAD" "The pain is over if you just do what I SAID" *What the hell is this, I was just happy about my life yesterday why am I thinking about laying down on that railway it's got my fuckin mind in disarray. I need help but i feel UNSURE if I can make it thru this I feel so OBSCURE* "Come on you can make it thru and ENDURE" You can't LET the allure Of a cure make your mind FILL with thoughs of the UMPURE The thought SLAMS into your head taking your breath away and your brain is spiraling out of control over thinking everything. "No body cares about me my lifes over ill never be happy" "Well it's far from UNtrue, CUZ no one cares to call you often" "look around theres no one so your better off to go lay in a coffin" Your friends were fake your family threw you away from a early age that sealed your fate I don't know why, and it's filling my mind with rage. It's just a voice in the back of my "You would be better off DEAD" "Grab the pistol, release the LEAD" "The pain is over if you just do what I SAID" *Why doesn't anyone who knows me want me to do good I never got encouraging words from anyone yet I will do anything to make sure this feelin never happened to even one I'm a friend but nobody ever has help to lend* Messages go unanswered my ex makes me feel like this feelin is what is deserved. My hands shakin it's my nerves " that's all I need Im done now for sure" It's just a voice in the back of my saying "You would be better off DEAD" "Grab the pistol and release the LEAD" "The pain is over if you just do what I SAID" "Keep your mouth SHUT" "You'll probably just embarrass YOURSELF" *But how I know what the answer is* " No your not smart ENOUGH" so I always keep quiet never saying anything just sit back and watch as my self doubt makes my entire body shake so viciously on the In side nobody ever knows what im going through i have to just keep myself together till i can curl up in a ball and hide holding myself till the fear goes away. It's like every fear I've ever had just came true at the same time and place and i can't tell a soul what's up inside my mind. and i carry a smile apon my face every single fuckin time It's just a voice in the back of my HEAD" saying "You would be better off DEAD" "Grab the pistol and release the LEAD" "The pain is over if you just do what I SAID"