I never say the right thing, but you still stay Crying in my bedroom, after you say sorry Lying to you, just saying I’m ok But I’m not ok I’m not ok I look up to you, like a goddess when you’re right here I run from my thoughts, they’re my own worst nightmare I do something wrong, my brain telling me don’t fight fear It hurts me even more, because I know you really care You really care Am I really here? Don’t tell me that you love me, because it makes me hurt more Whenever you say sorry, I feel like I should work more I know you shouldn’t love me, don’t think that I’m who you’re looking for And I don’t mean I don’t love you, I hate myself cause I make it worse I just make it worse Staring at ceiling thinking “Why doesn’t she hate me?” She always tells me, “can you call me babe, please” I make so much mistakes, and I’ve been thinking lately Everything I say, is wrong and you should hate me Why don’t you hate me? It’s so scary Maybe I’m just scared of someone really loving me I’m not one to let people, know about the other me I don’t like being vulnerable, cause people tend to smother me When I think love is possible, people just abandon me Is this a fantasy? Is this reality? Don’t tell me that you love me, because it makes me hurt more Whenever you say sorry, I feel like I should work more I know you shouldn’t love me, don’t think that I’m who you’re looking for And I don’t mean I don’t love you, I hate myself cause I make it worse I just make it worse Voices interrupt my thoughts saying “she don’t really love you” I can’t help it but I’m not saying that it’s true I’m sorry that you love me, I know it must be hard on you And if it helps, then, I think that I love you I love you I know I do Please tell me that you love me, even if it hurts more Don’t you ever say sorry, because it’s never your fault Even if you shouldn’t love me, I’ll keep trying to make it work I’ll keep telling you I love you, I’ll try not to make it worse You’re what I run for You’re what I live for You’re what I love more