yeah really going through life trying to run away from that type of understandable live I don't give a f*** if it's not right I'm trying to find what I am trying to see if you can understand what I'm thinking about half the timer on my mind trying to really pick at it like a lie is it really going to make a dime or is it just going to lose me life make me die real quick it's a right can't you understand that I'm doing it right listen to me as I try and speak the truth I'm just preaching to the choir what you think about the truth b**** please think that it's right please understand that I'm doing myself tonight trying to make me understand what the b****** say trying to understand what they really think why am I so freaking weird why am I so this way why am I so that way listen to me now trying to find a way to make your life a better thing if it's not a way trying to make it in the slums and I don't give a f*** it doesn't matter what is going on in this b**** huh really think about this s*** when you give it a thought and you pick at it then you get the real s*** at deep inside trying to find it real wide mix it together trying to make a dime can't you hear that s*** clinging in the past and the rewind trying to find what is really going on around my mind around my life and round me time to think that I'm not about sounding what I'm trying to spell out to your face straight up I will tell you what the no doubting sorry that's just how I am I got to be the man listen to me now I'm telling you better ways to live your life yeah trying to tell you to be the best person you can be by yeah that's right being smarter not working harder trying to find what is really on your life and really passionate for you to really feel your life it doesn't matter if you don't think it's right just understand one day it will make you feel alive even if you don't understand what we thinking all the time I know my mind is all over the place all the time and I'm trying to figure out how to bring the mess together and stick it back together like glue s*** I don't even know what to think of that even in my wrist I'm thinking about twisting a nipple in this piston trying to understand the glycerin of my mind is trying to make a feeling time trying to fill the time trying to make it go by faster trying to feel what I really feel feelings aren't really deal I don't give a s*** if you don't think about pills f*** that s*** anyways I will never do it I don't know why I'm even talking about it right now just listen to my mind I'm so crazy all the time can't you understand the life that I chose to live I don't even talk to my mother anymore I don't give a s*** f*** that b**** man she pissed me off I feel like s*** cuz I'm talking about it like this what is wrong with me anymore in the life that I live listen to me now can you really try find s*** to make me feel better all the time all the life I had and everything I feel about my mind is a half half half and 1/2 there's two of me and one of you and 5 6 7 on the side can you understand the reason that we really think about the dealing f*** that s*** yeah