i feel so alone in this cold world i can't even trust my own girl or those closes to me now i see why they say stay closer to your enemies cuz at least you know what they are i look to the sky and wish up on a star and i ask God to help me get through my misery what i ever do to any body for them to wish this life on me if i could i would turn back the hands of time and do things different maybe then i wouldn't be in this predicament you see the life i lead only the strong can survive cuz sometimes its hard to live it would it be easier if i died but i will never contemplate suicide cuz i think of my kids and what that would do to them so i continue to strive everyday what doesn't kill me makes me stronger and right now I'm lifting weights and these demons trying to get ahold of me with God in my life i will defeat in him i believe and i shall admit with no shame cuz without God my side that's like a pimp with no game that just wouldn't be if i could turn pi