the first time i felt extremly happy and blessed is when i passed my General contractors test and started my own bizz the 2nd time was without doubt the happiest i ever had felt when i wed my best friend she was everything i hoped for in looks and inteligents has a husband i was true and devoit the i had my beautiful wife and my beautiful daughter my girls they were my world there was nothing i wouldnt do for them i adorned then with all they needed never to want maybe spoiled a bit much a lexus gs430 diamonds on her fingers and wrist a jewlery box that mounted to the wall same lentgh as she was tall packed full my little girl had the fairytale room everything she wanted i would not know what to do if ever i lost them i worked tirelessly to keep them happy i had big plans for the future when a childhood friend phoned head on collision almost lost his wife need to leave malibu and soon medial there was not in tune with what was needed to help his wife fight for her life he was coming home he would arrive in a month he sold his home for a mill start up capital for our new bizz deal flip houses we talked for hours that night on the phone send me pictures of him and his boys how much he loves his wife and kids and before we got off the phone he said in a monotone make sure you love your family tell them that you do cuz you just never know when Death comes for you 2 weeks later his wife phoned to give me the news my friend died fell from the 3rd story i felt so much for his wife and the. kids i looked at my wife. and told her just how much i loved her. and i wouldnt know what i would do without her then ive been stuck in time inprisoned within my mind i search for awsers so i will no longer walk blind but the one who holds the awnsers does not have a spine your back they can go behind but they will never look you in thee eye cowards to the nine selfish and this was wife who devistated my life i thohgt we were tight she did me like a steanger in the night broke every promise she spoke left me fucken broken was very much in love when she started having her fun late night at the office sucking and fucking coming home and tells me she loves me there no one else as investigate i find not only is she cheating but wants my daughter to check out his son with half naked pics on her phone this when my world was thrown upside down it took all i had to not destroy everything in front of me as she swears im her everything trying to better me as she whispered in my daughters ear dad add an affair i may need to do some drastic moves be preppared dad fucked me over he told me and were not staying here my daughter hurt and not sure what to do just knows shes not happy thibking what did dad do so she ran away while i looked the wife took turn and booked a year went by i found my baby girl shes with her mother both hiding from father so i wrote a poem each day my own words confessing my love from the day she was born till she finslly walked back through my door just turned 18 i explained it wasnt me who had the affair come sit in court you will hear her face dropped when she relized her mother told her lies when she confronted her mother the devil did she reveal words told my little girl were words to kill the last words my baby girl said was i just died mom would never have done this i just died dad 2 day later she took her last breath i am raged i am raged as i investigate i find she was having my baby illeagally strip and even worse than this abortions she signed off on 2 time in hospital near death not a call to me her real biological dad she was a step mother wanna be used my daughter to not appear as a slut to her family rumors of her engagement and made their way to me before she's even done divorcing mealong with those memories and she's having a baby we should just bury her daughter she committed udultry and blamed me lied to my baby and put her thru to much shit for a young girl to take now i want to take from her i want her to burn my stomach turms day after day looking for a way to end this bitch who destroyed a famiky for some dick im pissed action are an indirect reaction that took my dauhgters life i want to take her life if onl path i take it all leads the same time goes by days turn weeks and weeks into months thet start to overlap cant seem to grasp why my life has collapsed i find it imposible to relax its like being trapped constnatly looking for a door or some kind of an exit latch just maybe if you can go through it you can get what you lost back you play 1000 senerios looking for any crack for any chance to skip a track to change your lifes path when in fact theres no one coming back its an undescribale feeling knowing the love you felt once will never return and you will never feel again no matter how much you yurn forever your heart will burn km i pray i prayed still yet im feeling the same trying to deal with this pain since the news came of my daughter i wanted to killl mame and slaughter any and everyone particularly the one she called mother when i found out she was no mother but one of the reasons shes no breathing with her high mighty bitch attitude straight up Ghetto Rude i would like to add S next to the M in mother keeping it undercover her and her fucking lover she fuckin destroyed me and our family a coward she has shown to be running after 15 years didnit even shed a tear no condolences given to me as her father when told the death of our daughter since she was a step wanna be parrant her actions make it apparent no love given that was real just played the part for money i feel. thoght she had it made then drugs help show her a new and poof heres my life fucked over by the love of my life and my baby girl Dead from coke and zanny this world can give you an overdose your eyes may be open but you're comatose hold your words close cuz if the devil knows what you charish he will make it parish i would never had guessed the love we shared could be tossed without care then to hook up with another right away proved he was there before our final days and could have never felt love for me as she woud convaie then my daghters ashes she would try to take away for no other purpose than to hurt me and justify to her family she wasnt a money hungry chasing slut but it all to clear whats happend here and now my days are in a maze what can i do to stop this train i need to find a way to derail with her in it because in the end i must win for my little girl i must smash her world she fucked over the wrong white by irsh dude grew up homeless the streets were all i ever knew everything i would try to teach my daughter she would come round my back and undo how the fuck could love so pure and true turn so ugly burnt lesson learnt never trust a broke ass ghetto bitch they leave you face down in a ditch and tell your moma you run off with some friend while crying up on the porch bench straight up evil while her new man thinks hes got a catch and blindly looks past all her descrections as if i deseved them and my daughter deserved death the last words she wrote her step daughter he apperars not bothered so for his son he is not concerned father because a q hes somthing special self silly fuck your next 2 things for sure maybe 3 i gurantee a chin check from me for all the shit you be spilling you ugly as all hell and you going to get your case with her since you have one with your last so I'll just sit back and be patient cuz you're dumb ass on probation and we all know where they can put your location down at gray bar station it only tskes 1 provocatuon then yiu will have plenty time start your peronal maze