htown

4 years ago

Dreams of an insomniac Those words take me back To where I wanna be, where my mind is free, to go on a living spree. Dreams that got side tracked, drive was what I lacked, i was stagnant and i was comfortable with that as a matter of fact. Guess we all have demons that eventually find a way to come out, scared to face them so you dont know what you about, general direction is south, family had high Hope's that turned into to doubt. Dreams of an insomniac, I faced my demons, well how about that. I had a spiritual awakening, I needed that. I thought about all the things that I lacked. Perspective I gained through introspection of me, looked in the mirror and started with me. Im destined to be who I'm meant to be , if I choose to be me, and stop wearing masks and not make any enemies , but friends who wanna see me succeed. Dreams of an insomniac , I grew up in some sort of trap, cursed to make dealers wealthy, give your family crap. Gangsters our role models , how about that. Guess what we lacked, is ambition in the right direction, to show the ones we love affection, and not have them constantly stressing. To be a blessing Dreams of an insomniac, my dreams reach for moon, let me tell you that. To give my family all the things that they lack, love is a constant, but so is stress over things that this corrupt system puts on our backs . A weight on the shoulders of hard working mothers and fathers, trying to make a living,without stressing. Dreams of an insomniac, I'm more myself when I rap speak the truth, put me inside the booth and feel my soul. Feel my struggle, feel my pain, respect my hustle, came up from under the rubble finally ran away from trouble to stand the test of time, a single verse to define , how my story is outlined, I was blind , now i see, realised my God is good to me, put me through trials he moulded me, to come forth as gold. Dreams unfold , eyes wide open, words so bold. dreams of an insomniac conscious verses I drop intellectuall hip hop mad innovation the type of shit to save relations to move a nation when I write I'm in zone no distraction, concentrating ups and downs, smiles and frowns dealing with jokers, hitting rounds with clowns niggas so far gone who could gain a few pounds where appearances dont matter all that matters is crown guess that's something that hasn't changed but my grind won't be the same every one will know my name but not for things that bring me shame I came to claim my place in the game, no matter what it takes it either makes or it breaks but it's a risk I'm gonna take I keep my faith I keep my dreams in outter space pay my respects to being lace I was crawling I picked up the pace too much time went to waste bought too much face niggas who had words that always seem to have a bitter taste this side of the tracks to them we were a different race we never had much but they had less made them think less of themselves I guess ignorance that caused a mess but what they lacked gave them ambition I must confess they did impress overcame circumstances never afraid to take chances to defy the status quo wasn't always the right way but they got what they needed tho guess you know what you know as for me, I opened my eyes I see more than what's apparent to me nothing is what it seems to be friends and enemies what's it to you it's nothing to me your intentions are clear to me I keep it real it dont matter if you pretend to be something you not temporary is your presence around me I never ask noone for nothing I fucked my own thing up so nobody had shit to tell me you do you I'll do me I do what's I feel is necessary I was so fucking unnecessary thank I got that who I used to be this is the old new me the same mentality but a different trajectory make it up to my family they never ever gave up on me even when I did myself I was a danger to my health both mentally and physically did what I did only for me never regret the past cos it reminds me who not to be and it motivates me to be more than anybody thinks I can be dreams of an insomniac cant sleep, so I write up all night ,trying to get it right the things on my mind could fill a page a million times its who I am, I'm defined by the words in these lines between the lines is my heart and my soul I cant control the visions the lessons the blessings the days my momma was stressing the night's she was praying gracefully broken I saw my future I was broken my best thinking got me where I was my faith put me where I was found my feet put firmly on the ground but I'm taking off I wanna fly I wanna take a chance and try dont ask me why cos my answer is undefined my mind is amplified ideas, thoughts and emotions words seem carefully chosen mind is open, exposing ambition growing without me knowing I'm open to how I feel what I'm hoping I'm not joking I'll keep on poking till I awaken the bear inside of my soul I was chosen for greatness, dont even ask what my name is you already know now you know if you didn't know I put this small town on the map for something other than niggas who got capped to inspire a generation to have greater ambition a vision and expectations of being great at whatever road they taking to not be mistaken to not end up broken or the one that the police is always Taking my words are an expression of others peoples experiences that became my lessons I learned from their faults the dos and the don'ts I wasn't perfect but I never went pass the invisible line that a lifetime of brothers ended up passing to please others others who never bothered to keep it real loyalty faltered lives were ruined minds were broken lives end up taken without hesitation mindless determination to be a self proclaimed king to make a name in this game it's a shame that they dont see that they cursed our towns the youth dont grow old the night's are cold the streets are dark the snakes in the grass they stay awake so they can take what they cant earn cos of an inability to learn