#pr4yremaster - finally finish with the final draft for the current contest.. took too many submissions and deletions and I'm still not happy with it remastered for contest at night i think i might get sleep but my eyes wont close so i always see i take some downers like 2 or 3 pills to knock me out and catch some z i pray to god to let me please relax my legs move restlessly my spirit senses something next to me an attack from some dark entity a demon most probably so i start panicking until i remember that i got access to power much stronger then these shadow people i keep glimpsing slipping past me silently even if i try to start a conversation they dont speak to me like a moody b b is for bitch which episode of seaseme street did i see that one on? back when i was 3, or maybe it wasnt the tv that taught me to be mean and hit things and scream until i got what i wanted because my parents were too busy punching each other to spend time with me. i aint gonna cry i just aint gonna sleep. nature or nurture i dont care much for either theyre both just some theories thought up by professors most likely on 3 days of bingeing on ether. either that or the torture i being the very first child of two people who didnt want one to begin with but said i guess fuck it, well raise it and love it but they didnt show me their feelings if that was the case then id say that they hate me. hard to say when you rate me compared to my siblings who all had it better and properly patented like i was a mistake and left unattended but then when the next came he was born to be favorited. i was slapped around, they were given crowns, never taught me life skills, while mommy paid their bills, i felt out of place, thats because they took mine and threw me out of the spot light, now im in the dark night talking to myself saying everything is okay! but its not and i dont mean knots like the one my stomach is tied in from hiding and stressing out about the future @bmkid @RachED.1 @SG15Music @DeeMasta @Carcinogenik @SpookDaTrey @hjay @Ziplock