(yeah I might be captured in my head where all my thoughts need to be put to bed but honestly that's easier said than done) (cuz when I head that gun to my head that's when everything really changed I feel like i was over aged I guess everything really changed) but I forgot the price I've never paid (oh everything I would trade to made all this the right way but they keep talking in my head saying I should of been dead a long time ago but for them that would only put on a show cuz the things I know nobody knows this is the first time in my life I ever got to sit down and smell the rose) (just know I'm not trying to bring up my past it's just the first time I ever got to speak my mind and that's why I can't leave all of this behind at least not yet cuz I've done so many bad things I cannot forget just because all my life I've been treated like a offset all this just makes me flustered and upset if you ask me if I regret) (cuz sometimes I just want to push the reset button on my life and all the petty lies I just know I survived this shit twice cuz everything was just me walking on ice and people are given me advice how to change my life cuz they don't know what it's like to be looked in the eyes and be told you'll never be anything until you're alive)