yeah i feel it with every new dawn gradually feeling the emotional pain with in me that grows on and on dont know if he can hear me but im talking about my homie shawn and some say life goes on well its finally catching up to me now having to deal with the fact that your gone, its crazy how you really wont know what you had till you don't, its sad when the concept really sinks in the most, up to the point it almost has your decision finalized as your contemplating an overdose when dealing with when times are tough, like when is it ever enough nothings changed except for time.and place my life remains the same with everday life increasingly grows and more rough but thus i stay thankful because im able as long as im physically capable to self medicate me with happy memories and some goodweed that i slowly medicinally puff to cope with reality when i happen to be going through the most stuff and all at ounce it hits like gravity right around then i be feelin like a cd with a scuff looken to start from scratch but haven trouble with the rebuff talk about a kill joy to snuff out a good buzz you thought you were gonna have untill reminded of dumb shit we would chant hopin around the joplin streets like B.I.S.D witch meant bitch i shoot dope now for me i changed it up after your leave to bud i should dip and right then i decided to make like a tree and leaf because i couldnt deal with the grief or me.never running.into.you again in joplin on the streets so i ran from my problems thinken it would solve them instead it caused diggen me a deaper whole leaving me with a harder obstacle to overcome so that i may continue my travels down this dusty rugged road that i myself not a clue where it may go maybe somewhere pleasant crossen my fingers i hope and yea i feel it i feel the struggle to try and double juggle each and every day with faking a smile wile pretending everythings ok and wanting to rip apart my chestplate so i can attempt to break away the pain from the ache of my heart break yeaaa so they say time heals all wounds if thats the case were all doomed because the wait of the time it takes is either gonna make us or be the one that breaks us well ill be damned if i let a little pain be what defines me or decides what makes us because i believe in manifestivities and how endless are all the possibilities just from speaking the nonexistant in to the existing i mean after all everybody is in control of there own destiny take it from me our preception we perceive is perceived differently with the understanding of with every action we make there is a reaction after that takes place so take nothing for granite and remember like every clever car bumper sticker says ass, cash or gas no one rides for free cant change nothing with out investing somthing take it from me trying to ride through life without paying forward somthing get ya right where ya started out with nothing a lesson that inspired the very fire inside of me from someone who will forever exist inside the hearts of many rest easy brother R.I.P forever loved never forGOTTEN Shaun rockERS