I've been there before staring at a wall debating to end it all waiting for the call hoping it's my ma if she only saw me laying in bed end of the world inside my head wishing I was dead but you can't let yourself fall you gotta stand tall think of your fam and who I am why I stand death by my own hand from that I ran became my own man my past I ain't ashamed look at the man I became I am not the same I feel like I'm insane but I live day by day with my father Jay somedays so much pain like a endless flow of rain going each and every way but I will be okay my future I will make can't always be a gangster that's for goodness sake I am not a fake I'm real in what I say but you might be a snake my eyes are awake I know what it has to take but it is a big debate I hope it is not to late I don't want this to be my fate cause if it is my life is thin as slate I just play the game I'm smart I use my brain yes it brings me shame I am the one to blame my beast cannot be obtained my music is like arcane magic my lyrics they are tragic but its really just logic one day ima be on God's list the way I live it's a hit or miss I'm my grandma's precious prince she hasn't called me that in the past since love is all that matters I'm convinced in guilt I'm just rinced one day I'll be rich hustle on my mind it's like a constant itch.