hey there am I living a nightmare people walk by and stare or act like I'm not there decision making from desperation numerous faces numerous places and i wish for a lot better then even to my enemies those who don't like me silently judge me and wanna fight me rejection got me flexing in anger, I copped a glock now I'm considered dangerous what the fuck spend two years in jail nobody paid my bail where were my friends when I was locked within <pause> looking at me now stuck in rehab I don't understand people and why they always tripping I'm closing from within my light extinguished i such a cold world now im using dirty language and not giving a fuck escaping through only drugs and rap Why don't my dreams come true fighting and fighting through my blessings I'm writing not many blessing but the ones I got I'm using and not guessing about what y'all think im fucked up off a drink and smoking that reefa feeling so lonely my other half I need ya cuz it's a cold world make it or fall die without accomplishment my addictions are why I'm stumbling shit... sometimes I wish I'd wake up to nothing at all then get beat up by failures because of y'all but I'll never give up without trying I'm persevering yet I feel like crying fighting against odds sometimes sinning, still winning I I ain't even lying bullshit I ain't buying