truthfully this is exhausting learning to listen it's hard work with the only thing that's going to make me better I've tried the medication that exactly my symptoms they make me worse I tried to come after medication and I get my email I try to stay on the medication and I feel like s*** there must be a middle ground somewhere between the two there must be other people that are the stuff like I do if you have any ideas any suggestions whatsoever how to fight do I clear this bipolar or is it a disorder or is it a break let me know let me know your experience let me know how to fix it because it's f****** making me crazy is driving me crazy my energy is leaving my body and my body is dying my brain is dying somebody please help me I can't do this for much longer is suffering is f****** relentless in never rendered I cannot win it's always pain there is some game in between when I managed to crack a smile when I remember when life is Johnny rotten there's something if forgotten just under do this but that takes all the energy in the world when I feel like this somebody please help me save me from myself thank you please I beg you please please f****** help me thank you