every day situations hello hellotoday the day i stop attacking my self stop thinking im too boring for the common individual expressing stressing i be very unusual cant breath but not coronoa causing this panic attack its from my bad mental impression lost searched for a way around but life dragging us down a mission trying to rise above but im just always full of worry shame pain grief tears that i cant cry screaming going crazy family left me abandoned and chained noone nbelieving in my vision is my reason i keep causing myself to question every day in a great situation vut constantly thanking giving appreciation to the ones around me sayin its gonna be just for the daythen. ibstep outta vmy trance and realized i just wanna be me forgiven and free but then the mood swings and im doubting myself lying on myself losing trust in myself cant seem to understand why i lose control steppinh up t home plate just to get told your out no home run for me cuz my parents in a imaginary place life full of love lost washed away then the mood swings and im praising my self loving my self in control over myself cant express what im feeling now what do i say no i repent and constantly fail but ill never be brought down bycalamity on the dark side looking around the light in the far background im running and running tripping over values of how to carry myself but thenthe mood swings and im talking to my self expressing nonsense outload no one vut but me to see my mumbling and rambling scence when the mood swings ill be talking ti my self loving myself doubting myself trying to remain in control of myself