to all my friends who are no longer with me its seems like it was yesterday we were still kids making memories I often now look back to and use them like some kind of home sick remedy for copeing with every day adult life pain like things called tragedies and here. lately I cant help but feel animosity towards any and all forms of authority but it.doesnt help because of how i appear only seem to make people fear even to the ones I hold dear just makes it harder to pull myself together at the end of.the year anything more or less added or subtracted comes with action followed by a reaction like a now and after my definition of a beautiful disaster falsenlrandomn acts of kindness seems to be what others lack value of I dont consider kid friends were plenty , now there ain't so many , Evidently I been Pathetically lingering self Consciously always in a hurry non stop I worry ,if they all left thinken they were meaningless to me because I foolishly so carelessly allowed life to get the best of me to all my friends who I owe and offer you all the up most sincere apology for all the time I had taken granite when I coulda woulda shoulda but didn't think to consider untill now that your not here unlike any other moment where its better to be late untill you finally realize reventually your stuck with never and generally never means forever and ever a perfect horrible example consisting of no longer