too many thougjts paralyze my ability to walk on into the other side, each door that I tryed to gain entry into were all locked and hatefully shaming me to no end, why's they all laughing in my direction and giving no fucks, The experience was surreal,and as for me continuing to loathe myself unconditionally I need meds to calm down and in an overly bitter but sweet, indulgence the poison sweet nectar I swim and relax in,carry my happiness in, suduces all multiple probabilitys that have proved themselves confident, when overly n overtly but most tactfully, carrys out his goals.. sometimes lyrics come after you like, demons for your past oh their fast there fast and just aestheticly leaving you misery in a jar by your bedroomdoor..