can't seem to focus lost in a cloud full of Hocus pocus mentally drained cloudy and foggy like locusts dreams and nightmares class together feel so hopeless I don't even know if I know it. or even what hope is withering away with each day the emotional support of my bae keeps me sane but not even her sometimes can keep me from feeling the rain bothered by the emotional drain of so much pain when the world is waiting upon you it's kind of hard to create gain. everything seems to move in from the sides causing me to lose focus what's going on in my mind too many people gone away either dead or forgotten the world that we live in got me feeling rotten too many in the spoon with a needle and some cotton. the darkness is taking over all the we've gotten I'd like to say that we'd be turning the ship around but I'd be lying to me and you and that's not how I get down so I'll be right here living the lifestyle already lost a child to this ugly world so I got no smile if you think I'm bullshittin come and stay awhile last night I slept with a blanket on some tile and that was probably the best part of my week not having to beg and borrow and steal just to get something to eat I got no luck and I got no way to make ends meet so I hustle hard 365 everyday of the week like a hamster spinning his wheel round and round just to find out who's got the bricks in pounds summer going to talk like they got everything most of these n***** got nothing and I mean anything so when you hear them hit their wrapped about their gang it's because they're scared and alone it's a solo thing so imma keep it real right here now this ain't cries from a man it's tears from a clown gacy I don't like it