Where am I at now? Lost in space with no space of my own. No trace of a home my head is in my phone. That's where I go when to feel less alone. I get less likes every month on the posts i put up I'm losing their interest im so out of touch. Everyone who waves I took all their stuff I took advantage of the things they couldnt manage now theyve all had enough. I need a bandage for all the damage that i caused during this panic Attacks me Everlasting Never gets past me its fucking nasty I cant fucking stand it. I swear things arent goibg the way that I planned it I gotta hand it to my self for the way I crash landed im still standing though no one else is there to be repremanding. No more family I fucked that up when I decided I can be Independent Middle fingers up to everything recommended Ou1lkll the fuck they gonna send it Kkki8iii9i8iijjjj too busy on a couch somewhere incomprehensive. I am selfish. Reckless. Inevitably a mess. I would not tell this to you If I didnt wish you best. I want to be better cause im not like the rest. But what better means to others is much more complex. How deep does this really get? Ill just confess I try not to think because deeper ill sink The more thoughts that fill my head the further down it brings Sorry if I seem a little numb and apethetic. I promise my feelings are strong i just dont wanna look pathetic so im good at ignoring the thoughts and the pain. I really hate to admit it. I hope you dont find me insane but if you do, i get it.....