Always looking up, A whole new way of livin, Yeah, Drowning self doubt n pity, Revolver in my hand, Playin Russian roulette, I'm not a gambling fan, Odds are in, Instead of backing out I take the chance n jus pull it, Hear a click n drop the pistol, Guess its sinking in, I'm not only an artist but a human being, Suicidal thoughts, I'm tired but this ain't the end, I have a wife n a baby, My anchor, The reason why i wont cave, Back down, I wont give in, people dont relate? To my music, Wasnt made for them, It was made by situations, feeling lost, A way to get the pain to end, Never want nothing more than peace, As I lay to rest, I'm a lover not a fighter, But I fight for what is mine n my beliefs, I ain't perfect, Armour's tarnished but its tested, I am far from weak, Not a god I'm only human Yeah