in this town you avoid needles, in this town I avoid people. and they hate you for that, and they hate me for that. in this town I avoid needles, in this town you avoid people. and we hate us for that, and they hate us for that. dear Chad, here I go. feeling bad, feeling alone. without you, my bro. where the f*** did you go. you left me all alone. you would answer your phone. cuz my best friend was your hoe. then I f***** her and didnt know. cuz I was drunk didn't give a f*** I drove alone well that was on drugs. then I blanked out and then woke up. in my bed hearing I f***** up. told me what I did I thought you wouldn't give a s***. cuz all we did was talk s***. about her and then get lit. all I wanted to do was yell I wish you would know how I feel right now i need my brother's help I just need someone who is real all I wanted to do was yell I wish you would know how I feel right now i need my brother's help I just need someone who is real so here i am wondering what to do to get you back, ill make another fucking verse, ill make another fucking rap. i look back at the past, words in my head keep spelling Chad. i dont wanna feel sad, but no one else has my back. they way you did. i look stupid. everyone else with their two cents. keeps pissing me off, it didnt really matter until you did. i wanna rip this page, im filled with rage. like an ape, locked in a cage. i dont think im even gonna be able to perform this rap on stage. I remember nights, when we'd fight, i think i might go grab a light, cuz when we'd fight we'd go light, another joint and then reunite. and then light up until we're high. CTM was on a rise. In the dark we'd light up, at the park wed light up, in my car we'd light up, blasting X and pipe up. TENTACION, Lil Peep, The Slump God, Juice WRLD, and me. and all the other artist we'd listen to getting high and going to sleep. all I wanted to do was yell I wish you would know how I feel right now i need my brother's help I just need someone who is real