How could you love me after everything I did to you could I even ask you to think about me after all ive put you through it was always my mistakes I swear it was never you how could I replace everything she could give to you ive never had à friend who cared so much before actually ive never had à friend who didnt grovel like à human shovel I wish we went to the same school there was a real nice boy he looked like he chased the same dreams you were fighting for best friends dont change so you can meet him like before I remember his face but not the clothes he ever wore he held my hand the first day I learned to skateboard every day he would hear me called à whore by thé people who sold him like he never had à soul I liked him à lot but I wasnt sure what he was looking for why someone so unnatractive like me got the attention of someone who was so beautiful I was damaged goods with nothing to offer anymore we had so much in common like he was my whole world I couldnt understand why he was with me if he be longed to another girl I know now its à cold heartless world but his love for me remained unconditional I never payed for a thing no matter where we would go he loved me patiently as I was thrown to the wolves like à whore heard all the horrible things told to him about me by other boys it hurt too much I could hear it in his voice we have love now I found my best friend shes à really nice girl she also has a best friend who is also à boy im sorry i crashed your car I think you know who was on the phone im so sorry I swear ill never do that shit to you again I miss you please dont leave me alone if you ever return ill trap you in my beak like youre a dead fish and im à fucking pélican when I lost my mind you let me remember who I am again you might not be my boyfriend but youll always be my man the one I loved before never stood à chance you guys look like you would listen to all the same bands I didnt mean to fuck you so hard I just wanted to hold your hand I saw the picture I think its worse than the one we took on the van I cant even speak there's no words for how mad i am but I miss you hold me close so I can kiss you both it will never be like before because now we have what we wanted most if I forgot you its because you got too close I swear i cant live without you or the other ghost