Thousand Feelings

I ain't perfect but I keep it real, Head is spinning as I try n deal with life, Never thought I'd get here, In spite, Of all who doubted, Fed my demons like a water fountain, Spread jus like a wild fire, Suicidal thoughts but never acted, If I said it? No retraction, found an outlet in this booth, Not jus rappin', Self imprisoned in my head, People, Not understanding no matter how I explain it, Write a thousand bars n drop it, Still have so much to say, Gifted na I'm cursed, I jus can't tell the difference, People come n go, Temporary friend cards are given, Loner not by choice, Yeah I got my wife n my daughter, But to have a friend or 2, Checking in, Would be nice but it's to much to ask, So I pump out lyrics, Jus adding gas to the fire that made it possible, Real music til the death n you know it, I'm a man n a poet, With a thousand feelings stirring, I cant control it