yeah uh this ones for you grandma for moment I lost u thought I had all the time in the world with u i knew I could never say goodbye I could see it in your eyes your starting go and I wanted to say no but God held me back and I took granted of all this time I thought I had with you I knew all that time that we had spent together just me and u yeah it was true and it was because of u that I still have morals now and that I am man and I still stand life without you is hard and sometimes shit is just hard to get through and it's all because of you thats why I'm a mommas boy you the reason why still pray to God thank him for good people that are in this world today yeah grandma not gonna lie I thought u would never go when but when u passed before my eyes a part of me just died and I just cried cause I just lost my best friend to suicide and I wanted to die ngl it was the hardest moment of my life and shit wasn't right but my soul had to take flight and fight against those bad thoughts and learn from what was wrong to right but I had to get back on track and remember what I was taught to behave myself and just put myself back up on the shelf where I belonged yeah I loved u grandma and u were the everything I really lost in my life now I am rapping for u and keeping myself from trapping myself in a darker place then where I was so I can make u proud cause ik u watching right now but I hope u would just allow to give me a second chance to make u proud and come back to us as your family please.... come back please.... yeah...