ye im on the verge of a relapse see that graze on my knee cap that's from a beat up now that bruise on my back it's a wack from my dad and them scars on my arm there self harm they keep me calm they changed my life happened more than twice rolled a dice if i should take my life roll of a dice could change your life mom thinks it's all right to hit and scream at me but she's crossed a line it seems cos all of this killed my self esteem pushed my friends away from me and it's slowly killing me guess it's what you came to see and it's all starting to seem like... / / I'm pretty lonely I'm over loading with thoughts my soles corroding ye I'm pretty lonely but I'm under eighteen my flows not amazing / / ...a hopless, pointless waste of time I've been working hard ye I've been on the grind been working on my bars but I'm just tryin' find a good life apart from one in my mind go far away where i un-wind it's starts here today might end in a few years time but i hope it's when I'm in the nines tud... scares me in the night when I'm all alone it's a constant fight with my head and my body my future and this hobby my family as a whole it's left me with a hole... ...a hole load of problems like depression, anxiety, suffering and pain lead to SH witch scared up my veins everything from the slapping to calling me names used to be cutting but now i numb it with video games now all i think about is fame now all i do is bleed away now all i do is sit alone spend hours on my phone guess in a way you could say... / / I'm pretty lonely I'm over loading with thoughts my soles corroding ye I'm pretty lonely but I'm under eighteen my flows not amazing / / shoot for the stars don't even get past the clouds with all that is dragging me down a bad path hope i can turn it around cos in a few days i could be found head down with blade to my wrist this suicide stuff i might actually be at risk but my problems are too small if it's with others you compare so i can't get help? help? / / I'm pretty lonely I'm over loading with thoughts my soles corroding ye I'm pretty lonely but I'm under eighteen my flows not amazing / #lonely #deppresion #selfharm