a never ending fuse on a stick of dynamite the fuse is damp from the tears that I cry at night like a slow burn a constant pain before the real bang there's no turn its just a drag towards the real thang my family moving on, heading to another state my ex leaving with my best friend they get a clean slate I feel drowned here in this state- with all these fucking lakes I miss the damn mountains, man I'm missing home base I look in the mirror and I see my whole face nothing feels right and it's like a whole race I don't like the change that I have to embrace lets see who can run away from this cold, cold place it's like a bitch slap from a hand to a cold face my hands are wearing thin on this cheap rope lace I gotta pretend my way out, let's do some role play but I'm stuck in this nightmare, and I get no say I wish I could pull an inception, and hop from nightmare to dream everything is in question and I pull my hair as I scream everything is changing, normal is nowhere to be seen life really isn't fair, and I won't be coerced to believe it's getting harder by the day, you really wouldn't believe what I go through yeah I know what they say, but nicotine is a go to but I got it in me and if you don't believe me I'll show you it's gonna hit you harder than a double smack-down by Goku like when it's 3 in the morning and you sneak out of the house and you feel trapped in your room because silence is so loud and the only freedom you feel is when no one knows where you are and the snow is up to your heel and you're looking up at the stars I'm trying to fight back all this pain and depression but in this point of time I'm just sleeping and restin' I'm building up my strength - never stop second guessing but I'm taking a moment to look back at all of my blessings so in a couple months I'ma be looking up at the sky there might be a couple tears and I might even cry they're 700 miles away, but this isn't a goodbye I'll be down there someday, and we're all gonna fly