#AtlasFalling Dreams so fucking heavy Im shouldering the weight Cant hold on, im slipping Enveloped by the hate To desperately holding on from lifting Desperation driving my destructive collision course with history i'm Andromeda drifting Deep within the vacuum of the black hole i'm twisting Reconstructing physics Switching up reality Making it work for me Filling the sink-holes left in me My mind sunk quick-sand deep Forever feels like free falling juxtaposed by the gravity enthralling me Why i always hear the devil calling me I guess im Revan following To the ends of the galaxy and beyond An uncharted journey through the stars Manipulating travel through space Torn at the seAms, this time it seems ive gone too far They say youve shown the universe exactly who you are Inexplicable complexes demonstrated through these bars Not about being hard Not about love being written in the stars I write to turn my wounds to scars i apologize, sometimes i fail to feel Crying swollen eyes, hearts i never meant to steal Suicide, i tried, now im focused on the real Demons lie inside, another desperate crossroads deal An unfortunate aura Its an abhorrent magnetic field surrounding my planet i cant stand it Empowered motherfuckers all act like im evil planning Its my fault, once again it appears i was the one to stroke the flames, i guess i fanned it "Go ahead Try and excuse it with the issues of childhood abandonment" I can barely stand it Dad could barely be there Always working Convinced that my mama had abandoned us Unhappily abandoning a family of 3 kids Some bullshit id thought, out, id never be able to spit But once again here it is 27 years later its all rising to surface Causing my nervous So much for repression Reacting dramatically to the most common forms of depression My lack of expression an extension of my oldest childhood survival methods How could i know that'd id grow to naturally select them Nurtured the wrong way, i guess im defective I take my life and i wreck it They say the demon only consumes you if you let it Tell me why i let it i apologize, sometimes i fail to feel Crying swollen eyes, hearts i never meant to steal Suicide, i tried, now im focused on the real Demons lie inside, another desperate crossroads deal Soul for a soul, the price is high They call it a steal I ask em why them want it They said they consumed it, it helped them to feel Once again Assuming another's sins You've got a darkness to kill No lie Once contemplated suicide When i held that knife All i could see was my children's eyes Rest in peace Pac When reality is not what you expected It appears you fallen from the graces of the respected From their little box you've been checked off I guess un-given hugs is not enough When you come up rough All we were told was mom was strung out drugs But i knew Really she was just deprived of love Despised, the only thing the image of addiction does Its fucked up being 10 year old punk Mad at the world Now you know you can do it better You go get yourself your own kids and a girl But somewhere along the way you forgot to heal...