I've fallen to much And I gave no fucks U done lost my trust I'm so done wit love It turned it's back on me I'm tryna be good But tortured wit memoriiieess And every single day I feel the pain like 3rd degreeeee I'm just tryna be free Crushed over every single wave of anxiety And I can't breathe God wants me to change So he dug me a grave Put all my pride away And I never felt this way I hurt so bad and I ache Im wishing that it was a mistake That hed bring him back No matter the stakes I woke up with no soal to take I'll go down and drown my sorrows today bottom of the bottle I drink I dont know whats good for me to take No medicine can fix my ways I tried everything Smoking drugs and popping pillies It's kinda silly Yea To think of the bad It's kinda silly Yea To dwell on the past try to move forward But I can't find the path And I'm at war Under a constant wrath And I adore The things I worked for But Sadly I'm torn And I feel worn Thinking of before When u were born Held u in my hands Light as sand Drip through my fingertips And I pray again I didnt understand I'll always love you To no extent Lil nephew I'm sorry it was you Grab a tissue to cover all my issues