i thought i would be free already of the addiction by a decision made inside still I refuse to use will applied why? I don't wa''a keep.up that stuff would only be me sitting in the same pole here on top of it so fck that shit I wanna be fully free tonwalk and honwhere I want to be to do and choose what I want to do maybe it'sjust a matter of how I design my life in what I choose to.invest my energy and time of how. I feel.about the creation I'm in guilty about the things I do the mistakes i made this guilt and repression of it might not be the way gets me to belief in an illusion that i am worth less than i am or at least can be