16 bars, im emprisoned, im in prison, caged inside my mind. panic all the time, 16 bars right? 1 ok ima speed it up like im doing speed and peeing in a drug test cup, i got a new job so i can make a buck and waste it all like a dumb fuck, gamble it away place the bet, never on red and spin the roullette, watch it land on red thats my fucking luck, luck? 2 or irresponsibility? lets go with that that sounds like me why do you think i dont trust myself? im not a downer cus its cool, im depressed cus im a fuck up 3 i fuck up anything i do except for drugs and pleasure. but since when is money the measure of p man i am, whatever. 4 this world doesnt get me.. boo hoo no one understands me so im just gonna cry in the corner and piss my panties, feel sorry for me? 5 no? good. dont start now, get in your car and turn around id rather be alone then the most loved one in a crowd, ill cut the breaker just so no spotlight shines down, 6 on me, leave me alone let me be cant i do my own thing cant i ruin life if i want to? dear god 🙏 forgive me for the times that i feel like i dont need you. 7 your the only good in me, if it wasnt for you id have even less then nothing. no food no shelter, no clothing. and i wouldnt be married screw that curse! im already under the one you put us all under. hear my stomach rumbling? 8 im not fasting i just wasted all my money, dude wheres my job? i lost it. i set it down with my motivation somewhere when i picked up fear and put in me, now i cant find anything my peace of mind is also missing, did i even ever have any? 9 too many drugs man, my memory is dimming i put that light under a lampshade i was probably drunk or high and grinning 10 thinking im a rebel and justified in my own mind. cause and effect were two seperate things reaping what i sew never occured to me to be related to my actions and statements, vocally or internally i dug myself a pit and thats an understatent. 11 here we go on bar number 11 elevan bars surround me, pinned in place like my doubting, will i even get to heaven? john 316 lost its meaning a while ago when did i eat that leaven, 12 i swear the bread had none before i put it i the oven who did i let in and give access to come and change things without my permission? well if its not god it must be satan. 13 now hes got me thinking who even am i, ill villain? patrick bateman? i killed paul allen i saw the axe come down on him but my lawyer says hes fine, still alive and kicking, 14 here comes my hissy fit. mpvie references fitting like the glove im not even wearing because i dont even own any my hands are freezing but i cant afford ac or heating. 15 heres the last bar, hammer it down within, with the last of my emotions. this song was dark so let me stop it now before the light never shines back down again on me and my life of sin 16