I know I'm not alone Where has my mind gone Now that I'm grown Out here alone Wanna go home Hard as I try Why can't I swallow my pride Keepthese Feeling inside Let em ride Let em cry Let out a big sigh Cause I don't know why Sometimes I just wanna die Feel the world closing in How long has it been Since I had a win Since I had a friend Feel like I'm playing pretend And im losing again Mamma told me bout these days Told me I should change my ways Give him all my praise Escape from this fucked up maze Move on to the next phase But I just can't move Got to much to loose So What do I choose What tool do I use To fix my pain What is there to gain If this part of me gets slain Then whose to blame Blame the game Change my name Or stay the same As I was before I came Not looking for fame Just looking to tame This beast inside of me That's trying to break free Hurry quick flee Cause what you see Is what you get And my life is the fee don't forget And this is all I'll ever be But no regrets Like it or not Prolly never leave this spot Prolly already got All that I can be taught Feel like I been bought And sold so old so cold Might as well fold Used to be so bold Then I took this road Took on this heavy load Now who knows Where my story goes Try to share these flows As the cold wind blows Seems I make more foes Than friends Never knowing how it ends I keep committing sins As this fucked up world spins That how fucked up ivd been And it was fucked up back then Thankful I stayed out the pen Watched so many go in That was back in the day People had so much to say Now we all need to pray Reach for that brighter day Keep the haters out of my way The thoughts out of my head Glad my thoughts can't be read Or probably already be dead Somewhere pumped full of lead But I prefer to dream instead Sometimes Late at night in my bed Can't stop the things in my head But I know that If I try I can stop living this lie Stop letting life pass me bye But still I just wanna die With no body let my soul fly Maybe lifes better in the sky Maybe I'll find the answer why Maybe I won't and maybe I don't Really want to know Maybe I don't want to let go Maybe I should put on a show Fuck it and spit this flow Let the whole world know That I know how to blow Still won't have the answer tho Prolly never will But still I'll find a way to deal These feelings are so real The devil tries to steal Kill and destroy But itd all just a ploy Been fighting since I was a boy Now I'm grown Out here on my own Sometimes I feel so alone Sometime I feel I'm gone This world did me so wrong That's why I'm writing this song Hopin someone will take me home Cause Is been so long And I been so.far gone Crossing over from right to wrong Crossing over into another zone Somewhere I don't belong If I would pick up the phone I could find the way out And figure this day out Don't wanna fight and fuss Scream or shout That's not what my dreams about No doubt Can't make it without God on my side Need to swallow my pride Free these feelings from inside Always down to ride All those tears I cried And all the years I tried To get by Instead I got high