to my mama i hope youre doin well. been a few years since i knew your smell. last i saw you you were a livin hell. mom i love you i know you can tell. weve ben through a lot wew both got our sides. but no matter my love is the biggest size. i wish i never saw the sorrow in them eyes. that call you gave me one day caught me by suprise. told me youre done with life i know the feeling well. but thats the devils way of casting us a spell. in hurting you i helped you. i know you know its true. ion like not seein no more. ever since that night my minds been at war. its a never ending battle. like riding a horse with only a sadle... mama you know im always here. im on the sidelines waitin to cheer. youre doin so well im so proud of you. but i also gotta say im sorry to you. i shoulda done better protecting our lives. i was waiting to wake up thought it was lies. but nah it was all real. n now we stuck in a world wit no appeal. i coulve done better i know. but how else would i learn to grow. mama i owe you so much. you gave me the world n so much. i love you mama. thank you mama.