wondering wether I would break my word to a man that treated me quite poorly a mistake made not the first time seems to rather be a cycle repeating over time so why would i invest my life or my energy's in someone who just goes wasting this? i don't although I gave a chance again nobody really needs to be dying but still it's my choice what I do with what I make and in what way so next time I keep the trust that is mine resistance only getting bigger when the people keep asking I seem to be trapped in an abusive situation towards me why do I love through? why do I endure? why do I let this be? no more that I can accept this shit it is costing me to much kinda like death by a thousand cuts