How I feel pt 1 XLil_SuicidoX Verse 1: Its like I'm screaming out loud but no one can hear me, Is there anyone out there that can feel me, Or did that little demon in my head go ahead and steal me, Am I already dead, It always said someday it would kill me, I've been trying for years to overcome this feeling, I can't possibly win with these cards that the devil is dealing, He's had his eyes on me since I started rapping n I can feel em, I've spoken to him, On multiple occasions, Long conversations at night in about 4 different locations, Telling me if I sell my soul I can have my dreams n I would no longer have to chase em, I always denied the offer cause I'm not tryna let money slip in my cravings, An extended check is not what I'm chasing, I'm spreading a message and showing how life really is, Its not that time to get going, Imma say that I did the best I could, In this game there's alot of fire, I'm adding on a lot of wood, And that's exactly what I aspire, My gut says that I should, I've got my place up on my spire, I'm slowly slipping down I can't stay put, Verse 2: Ever since I was a kid fighting my thoughts, Succumbing to the truth n getting mentally lost, I found an outlet in music n swore to never have my soul bought, Just recently showed my mother my work from years kept from being caught, Now that I'm doing something productive my whole family is supportive, Where the fuck were all of you when I needed the motive, When my life was totalled, A wreck you all wanted to push me away and say I'm unsubordinate, I needed a lift when I was about to submit, But nobody wanted to listen, Saying that I was fibbing for the attention, When really I was just venting, I needed someone to talk to, Its like you didn't see me and you could just walk through, You have no fucking clue what you have put me through, I've been waiting for years for someone to act like they care n it be true, I can't have that then fuck it, I don't need any of you, fuck all you