I never knew you growing up as a kid I never knew you only the stuff that you did You gave up your kids so you could do drugs Yeah you kept the pills and gave up the hugs Man I wish you were here Dad you're all that I got I wish you and Mom were together even though all you did was fought I know you'll never get to hear the songs that I wrote But the feelings inside are rocking my boat Mom I love you even though I don't tell you And the reason why it's just the stuff that I've been through You know it's hard to go through life Knowing that your family stabbed u with a knife Yeah I wish it didn't have to end up be this way But honestly I don't know what else to say You said that you called why didn't I receive it My dad wrote the letters then why didn't you keep it Man I'm tired of you thinking that I'm all yours But you lost me because all you wanted pills If you really care then why don't you show it Dad changed and he loved me you just don't know it You are the reason he was in jail You are the reason he sat in that cell I wanted to see him before he died You talked about yourself while I sat there and cried If you really care then throw away your pills Open up your Bible and do what the Lord wills If you can see me from heaven please watch over me Please be proud of the stuff that you see I'm doing this for your dad cuz you deserve it I'll leave a seat open and say you reserved it I hope I get to see you someday in heaven Just know that i think about you 24/7 I know you went through life thinking I hated you But no I didn't I sat here and waited for you It kills me inside I never got to see you I don't know why the cops didn't believe you You're where a good man you deserved a good life Mom why would you do that to such a good guy Why couldn't you be the mom that we needed