El Shadai*4 Adonai*4 you alone you is the king that reigns in my life from my mother's womb to who I am you alone knows my steps my plans you guides me it will be boasting if I say it's me when life toast me and am lost you restore my way always been forgetting who I am but you remind me who I am help me find my home always mindful of your teachings father behind doors it's not easy I try hiding my identity trying to impress everyone am restless reckless senseless least of all but important no single day you've ignored me El shadai*4 Adonai*4 you alone is the king that reignsgs in my life I gat friends family and my love they keep increasing pressure in me making me be conscious of life it's precious finding and having you loving walking in your company it's all enjoyment but please mend my broken soul am so lost Bible so heavy for me content in it so much to understand my willingness ain't there it's like arousing dead feelings am jelous of my way of living full of lust a must daily failing my spirituality advancing my sexuality don't know my originality father take them away they so unbearable they are unstoppable am so uncomfortable I need you at my table that's why I sing El shadai*4 Adonai*4 you alone is the king that reigns in my life I've never been a begger you providing for me I've never been lonely your presence is enough never been homeless I take refuge in you lord at my Cross roads you the only direction at your sovereignty I humble your majesty so supreme have your way don't wanna die young don't wanna stay misguided don't wanna live in Shame what if I die in fame father this ain't a game I wanna gain my way again no bargain with life give me strength to face time at last in all you my Light.