During my child I lost friends I move a lot they forgot me my friends of me and the times we had it makes me sad me and elis friendship is gone during the hour during the day he just didn't appreciate personal space him and I go way back in the past history shown we were best friends for 4 years just to come crashing down like the twin towers hes gone we don't talk anymore guess it wasn't ment to be they say friendship is stronger then family they said friends are the key to reality I say bullshit eli was Like my dad I never had If you think it's weird I don't care it's like I'm reborn but in hell I'm not myself anymore too sad to talk to sad to cry I just sit in my room in the lonely days wich is now everyday thinking Fuck what did I do what did I say is everything gonna be okay I just repeat the over and over again every night everyday we just ignore each other in the hall pretending it's okay it's alright it's harder when your mom almost got cancer and your little cousin was born dead yea what I just said those 2 events happend 1 through 2 weeks ago it's hard out here