#scaryjay1987 #sicksicksixinthehead i hit the train consumed by pain my brain had gone insane i went feom being savage insane to lame/ i turned my back on all i knew and loved just because drugs had fucked me up and i had given up/ didnt come here for a fun ride i came here to die headed east the beast inside wont survive so it was suicide i sought/ i beoughr this on myself everyone had tried to help but noone was aware that i didnt care jay was no longer there/ he was just a child in the dark hella scared once wild at heart but now despaired/ mentally impaired rather unstable voices in my head rendered me incapable of knowing truth from fable/ i was incapable of being free from my demons/ life no longer had meaning was i awake or dreaming rehabed or dope feinding i didnt know i couldnt let it go no longer had the will to let my strength show/ it was the the end of road i tied the sheet and put it to my neck/ in hopes i could escape these things and find out whats next/ I COULDNT LET IT GO I DIDNT KNOW WHICH WAY TO GO ID NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE SHOULD I SLIT MY WRIST AND LET IT FLOW OR LET THIS BULLET MAKE A HOLE OR FIND ME HANGING BY A ROPE I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOW i was out of options find a way to leave my heart stoppin seemed the only solution to the problems that plagued me/ the problems that gave me lack of clarity i thought the grave may be the only way for me/ i turned my back on everyone thats why im knawing on the barrel of this gun blacking out the sun/ suicide self inflicted homicide im at my final destination time to get off this ride WHICH WAY TO GO IM FEELING LOW I JUST DONT KNOW WHICH WAY TO GO MY EMPTY HEART IS TORN APART AND ON THE FLOOR and i hope thats where they find me/bury me in piss with these dark thought inside me/ i was sick maybe they wont understand why i was a lesser man i watched my lofe slip through the cracks of my fingers like sand/ this wasnt my plan i once had dreams of doing things and making somerhing out of me but it fell apart peice by peice/ nkw im on my knees wanting death to take this pain from me ibwant to thank you all for trying to save me but now its time to go ima let my soul sing SUICIDE IS THE FINAL RIDE ITS TIME TO DIE TIME TO PUT AN END TO THIS SORRY LIFE AND die..